Update on my Health Issues

If you are unaware of my health issues, I will explain.  I have been suffering from many different random weird symptoms for the last 5 years.  They include blacking out, migraines, numb arms, hands, feet, and legs, back pain, dizziness, blurred vision, loss of vision, mini strokes, falling over and extreme fatigue.  They all happen randomly and not for any reason at all.  I noticed it around 4 years ago when I blacked out and wrecked our car in the parking lot at my job and almost totaled the car.  So I had an MRI done and they found white spots in my brain and said that I had some mini strokes and around 2 white spots which were inconclusive. My dr thought I might have MS (multiple sclerosis) I went a neurologist who told me to do some exercises and thought I had a hole in my heart and I thought he was crazy and never went back to him and just prayed to God to heal me. The symptoms seem to get worse each year so after I had my first baby Anissa my pain and symptoms got really bad and I sought out doctors. I had another MRI done and the 2 spots have now turned into 5 to 7 spots. I was sent to a neurologist who thought I had MS and couldnt diagnose while I was pregnant with my son, so I had to wait until I delivered to test for it.  After I had him I had a spinal tap (3 weeks ago) and the results came back negative and so she doesnt think that I have MS anymore.  The spinal tap was extremely painful to recover from and I still have pain from it. My symtpoms really point  to MS and the white spots seem to result in MS and you can still have a negative spinal tap and have MS and so she isnt sure but doesnt think I do and so will send me to a MS specialist but I guess it takes a while to get in.  In the mean time she sent me to a heart specialist last week to rule out any heart issues since I am blacking out and so I went to the heart specialist and felt like I was wasting my time because I never imaged that there was anything wrong with my heart at all.  When I got there they did an EKG on my heart that took like 5 minutes.  The dr came in and sat me down and asked me if I wanted my husband to come in there and I then got kinda  nervous. He said that I am too young to be at the heart dr and that my EKG was abnormal and so there is a problem but not sure what it is. He is thinking that I might have a hole in my heart and so if I would have just listened to the dr 4 years ago I might have saved a lot of time and suffering but anyway......I have a TTE test scheduled for October 11th.   This test is where I swallow a scope and it goes down my esophogus to the back of my heart and views my heart. It only lasts around 30 minutes but I guess it makes your throat hurt and you cant eat for a few days.  (but that is ok because I have 20 lbs to lose from having my last baby!!!)  The worst part is that I dont have any family close and no one to watch the kids and Mandrae cant get off work at all because he is starting a new job the day before and will be in training and not allowed to miss work and so I will be at the hopital all alone. Not even sure if they will allow me to be alone but I dont really have a choice. I am still trying to find someone to pick me up from the hospital.  It is a really big struggle to not have family close and I am having a rough time making close friends here in Fort Worth. It is hard to find people with the same morals, values and interests.  I miss my sister A LOT!! Anyway I am really nervous for the procedure and cant imagine that they will find anything but we will see.  The crazy thing is that this will not explain my symptoms and so if there is a hole in my heart, there is still something else wrong with me bc I have too many symptoms explaining something else.  I will be okay though because God is in control. The worst part is not knowing what is going on or what is wrong. I just want to find out what it is and how to treat it.  I want to feel better again.  My neurologist thinks I have a migraine disorder and gave me some migraine pills but they are making my migraines so so much worse and so I think she is wrong.  She is the worst dr I have ever had too.  She doesnt listen to me at all when I come in and all her office cares about is money and so I dont think I will have her much longer but neurologists are hard to come by in this area.  Anyway that is all I know for now and after I get the results from this next test I will let you all know. Keep praying and I know that this is all in God's timing and in his plan and so I will stay strong and be just fine.